I cannot remember the last time I didn’t experience a side effect from the list of medication I’m taking. I cannot remember the last time I wasn’t judged or thought of as disabled because of my illness. Do you really think I enjoy being unable to do the things I love to do-like going to the beach and hanging out with friends? Do you think I enjoy not being able to play with my son because I am just so tired all the time? After all that lupus has taken away from me, those two are hands down, the two most difficult things I have had to deal with after my diagnosis.